Two
7 January 1819
My
goodness! I cannot fathom how I took so long and so many pages to write
of an incident that happened so long ago and which should be out of my head.
We
are on a journey that anyone else would find exciting, challenging, and even a
bit scary. But my mind wanders back to a time that I best put behind me. My
father, after all, is riding with us, and that is a fact. And Susie
remains with him, maybe reluctantly, maybe not.
Father
is at once an imposing figure, and at other times, he seems so, well, small in
all senses of the word. His hair is graying now, and so, in a way, is his
face. I suspect he harbors an illness that he cannot or will not admit
to, and such should be no surprise. His fondness for the drink has been
well-known for some time, although a condition for being with us on this
journey has been his sobriety. If he is imbibing, he is hiding it well.
For her part, Susie is an amiable creature. Try as I might, I cannot hate her. She is several years older than I am, and could possibly pass as white. Her dark hair is always bound up, gloriously thick and curly and black, but not particularly coarse or wiry. Her green eyes are, well, merry, almost twinkly in a mirthful fashion. She has the tiniest waist that I have ever seen. But I mustn't think of such things. My mother thinks upon Susie as little as possible, and tolerates her because she must. This is an accommodation that my parents have reached as a part of their reconciliation. He no longer drinks nor swears nor is violent, but Susie remains a part of our lives. And, truth be told, she is a calming influence upon him. This is perhaps due to her religion. She finds sanctuary in walking with the Lord. And an added benefit is that she has been taught to read by the Methodists. They spend all Sunday afternoon teaching the Negroes, although I am not sure what good comes of it. But I guess it doesn't do any harm, either.
Major
John Archer Elmore is the leader of our ever-growing band of people going
westward or more correctly, southwestward. He is a force to be reckoned with,
my uncle. It is as though he always has to live up to his title of "Major",
having earned it first by serving in the Revolutionary War under Nathaniel
Greene, and later rising through the ranks in the militia. He was elected to
the legislature and all seemed to be going well for him. But he thought it
would be even more fortuitous to settle in the Alabama wilderness where there is tale of
black dirt and land as far as the eye could see for just 25 cents an
acre. So off to this new territory we go, mindless of the dangers and
risks.
It
was to my uncle that my mother turned so many years ago. It was he who
suggested, or rather forced, my mother to separate from my father and demand
from him sufficient funds to finance her life and those of her female
children. It was my uncle who perhaps had the judge in his pocket,
although I am glad that my father was called to task and made to pay.
But
I forget myself. As my Aunt Elizabeth has beckoned, I am to be describing the
events of my life, and it certainly seems that I have many.
We
left my beloved town of Laurensville
just as the sun was beginning to rise. There are eight wagons so far,
some horse-drawn, and some being led by oxen. Additionally, there are six
carriages carrying some of the women and children, with some of the men and
most of the Negroes walking along as we slowly venture onwards.
I
had hoped to be out of not only this county, but the next, but I am realizing
that my expectations are unrealistic, given our slow pace. I guess we were lucky that we reached the
Town of Pleasantburg ,
and that we were able to stay on the Mcbee land. There is a mansion here and a
few of us women, including my mother and my sisters, were permitted inside, the
owner being absent most of the year. My sisters and I are sharing a room
with two beds in it, and I suspect that this will be considered grand luxury
when compared to what I suspect we will later encounter. However, I guess that this journey will not
be so bad after all, and I shall set my mind to at least tolerating it. But I
still miss my friends, my books, and my pianoforte.
As the hour grows late, and the light is now dim
it being winter, I shall bid you a fond adieu. A fire has been built
downstairs, and a simple supper has been prepared. I fear that for all its
simplicity, this is going to be the most sumptuous meal we will have in some
time. Father and Susie will spend the night outside with the wagons and horses
and will somehow manage to pass the time. But I shall not think about that. Not
really.
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